Get away.

I'm pretty keen to delete my facebook and start all over again. I don't need 1,150 friends that I never talk to. Seeing two past lives on there that I've had, really gets to me and puts me in tears. My old friends from England, said they would keep in touch, never heard from them again until they heard I was coming back. But since I've been back, I haven't heard from them and haven't seen them. My friends from New Zealand, they're too busy in their own lives for me any more. And I can't trust any of them any ways. Even if I wanted too. Do you know what I really want? To go away to my favorite place, in Italy, delete my facebook and start all over again. So my old lives are behind me. And no one can find me.

I'm scared.

So in two weeks, I leave this country, again, to go live with my dad. It's what I've wanted for years and years. I was going to move to his instead of New Zealand, but I was scared to leave my mum. But now I'm back, I've grown up and I'm independent. I'm acting strong and invincible. But really, I'm still scared, a hell of a lot scared! I know it will be the greatest thing I've done for a while, but what if I make stupid mistakes? What if I don't like it there? What if I look like the stupid odd one out? I know I shouldn't be thinking this but I am. All I want to do, is go back to my home in New Zealand and not leave my mum ever again. Even if I have to start over with everything over there. At least I will be home.

It's time.

You've forgotten me. I need to do the same.

People like you don't get far.

You are the most selfish, ignorant, mother fucking cunt bitch mother fucker I have ever met. And why did I EVER, become friends with you. I'm glad our friendship is over, way over. And don't try to get me to forgive you, one more time. Otherwise I will come back, just to rip your head off. :) so we understand now? yes? okay, good, go get hit by a truck.

You.

You have the cutest smile. :) Just thought you should know. ;)

Pweeeeease?

I want to find a cute guy. One who will let me be myself and still like me for it. Someone who isn't scared of a bit of fun. Someone who gives great hugs and kisses. One who will care for me like none of the other fuckers did.

This is awful.

Being sick sucks. All because of the snow. But it's beautiful stuff and wonderful to play in. No cold is going to stop me! hahah.