Nothing in return.

You're an absolute bitch. I did everything possible for you. I let you move into my house and live here for 5/6 months, I brought you everything you needed, I gave you the best 20th birthday ever, I caught your tears and hugged you until you smiled, I gave you advice and I even kept your secrets. Once you moved out, you became the biggest bitch but I never thought you would go this low. You knew how I felt and you kissed him right in front of me. You were all over him, I got so angry. I text you abusive messages, I rang you and shouted at you. You started crying saying sorry. But none of that meant shit anyways. Because you still went off and fucked him in his bed. You're some slut who lives in the same town as me. Not the best friend I used to have.

It's so magical.

A few weeks ago, you came to my house for a house party. We spoke and danced but that was all. The next weekend I seen you at another house party. We all went to The Meeting Place and while the DJ was playing, me and you sat in the smoking area chatting for the night, watching everyone enjoy there night and having laughs. Everyone had told me that we would get together that night. I didn't think you were into me, so I said no. But when we went back to the house we were flirting, laughing and smiling at each other. 8am came along, we had no sleep but I was sitting on your lap and you had your arm around me. We got up and took the couch. While we cuddled we fell asleep. Every day since then I've been with you. You came around that Thursday my Dad went to Dublin and we watched a few dvds. You touched my face so softly and I looked at you, you smiled and then kissed me. I got butterflies in my tummy and I smiled. You've stayed at my house every night since then. You get along with my family and I get along with yours. Sunday night just gone, we were out in the pub. Everyone asked if we were together, we both just smiled and then laughed. We didn't know what to say. Because we are but we aren't. Later on in the night I seen my sister, and she grabbed me and said in my ear "I told Ken to look after you and if he hurts you then I'm going to kill him." I went to move my head away to smile at her but she pulled me back and said "He told me that he wouldn't ever hurt you because he's mad about you and really likes you." I didn't know what to say. All I could do was smile really big. Then I looked at you and thought to myself, "I like you too." I understand why we're not in a relationship yet. Let's wait for the right time, because I like how things are now. I know I'm nearly 18 and you've just turned 25, but age has nothing to do with it. I know you can treat a girl right and now it's me you're treating right and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. All because I have you. I really like you.

It's the truth.

I can't believe after all this time, I knew who you were through your brothers death, but never actually spoke to you. Now you're mine and I'm yours. You may be 25, but who cares. I like you and you like me. We keep each other happy. Staying in watching dvds, going out to the pubs, going to house parties. I always seem to have a smile on my face because of you. Just jumping in your arms for a cuddle makes me feel amazing and safe. You give me butterflies in my tummy.

Something new.

I don't like being single any more. Sure, my life is free and I can do whatever. But I want a guy I can be with and text every day, make them smile, go to them when I need or want them and reversed. I will find someone one day.

I'm not yours.

Everything that happened between us ended. After 6 years you decided to put me to the side still, so I left everything behind. We were still good friends. But last night when you text me that text, it was a shock. I still want answers.

Crazy night.

I did it for the first time in my life. I never thought I would of but it was fucking great. I've changed a lot in the last 6 months. But now I'm the real me. The old me has gone. The old me wouldn't of done that at all, ever. Would of said no and walked away. But I went straight for it and I got it. I was loving my life!

It's fucking lovely.

You know I've had my eye on you, and you had yours on me. But the time couldn't of been any better. Your kisses are amazing, and falling asleep hugging you was the best. I swear I've never been this happy as I am now after what happened that night. You've got me all smiles.