Once again.

I'm going to find a guy I can be happy with one day.

It's who I am.

I'm failing at my relationship with you, I know. But what else can I do. I know this week has been fucked up. But I've had work from 8am until 8pm. I can't text you much and then you go to bed. When I get home, I'm tired, hungry and dirty. I have something to eat, chill and have a shower. Things happened between us to make me think different. But I can't trust you at all anymore. Not one bit. I'm fucked up. Yeh. But so are a lot of things.

I hate your mum.

Not for your mum.

her or me?

You asked your ex for sex. You two planned to do it the next day. I have been told by a multiple number of people. I think once is enough for me. Because it gets the picture in my head of you and her back together. While you say you love me, you plan to have with her. You really need to choose your pick. Because I'm not sticking around if I keep hearing this, I absolutely hate it. I even remind your friends of her. That's not something I want to hear. That I'm just like her. But I'll tell you now, I'm not one to ruin a relationship. Unlike her.

Accept it.

You mean everything.

I'm sick of the arguing. I'm sick of your mum. I'm sick of the one words. I'm sick of you chatting up other girls. I'm sick of you being boring. I'm sick of trying. I'm sick of us falling. I don't think I could take you back again anymore. But I love you and you mean everything to me.

I want this.

I want a guy who will love me for who I am and not what he wants me to be. I want a guy to be happy in our relationship and try not get me to do everything. I want a guy who will make happy times and not arguments because he's bored. I want a guy who will go out of his way and do things for me which doesn't include money instead of saying it and not doing it. I want a guy who will be happy without having sex and not pressure me into and force me to do it. I want a guy like Bruno Mars. He is adorable. Unlike my real life boyfriend.