Thursday, September 9, 2010

9th of September.


It's supposed to be the best day when I'm supposed to be happy all day. Evey year since you've been around I've done nothing but cry because you chose what we do, where we go, what happens. But I'm seventeen now. Can you just fuck off. You may be able to rule everyone else's birthday, but not mine. For fucks sake. You have no idea how much you piss me off. I wish it was just me and mum. I wish it always has been me and mum. I want nothing to do with you because you ruin everything.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Karma is a bitch.

This reminds me of you.


(Roll, roll the credits)
Boy in the beginning
The beginning it was me and you
I was Bonnie you were Clyde
And we were running
We were running for the minute we knew
(Roll, roll the credits)
But then in the middle
In the middle you went and changed the script
Took a pencil and erased my happy ending
Instead of loving you I feel so sick
(Roll, roll the credits)
I know you directed it
I'm sure I produced a bit
So why's that chick stealing my show?

Baby tell me, who is she?
I need to know her name and number
Tell me, who does she hang out with when you're not together?
I ain't gonna do nothing crazy
I just need you to hear me
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
And tell me how many of your friends you told all about it
They said your working last Friday night when I was calling
Did you lie to all of them too?
Or was I just a fool?
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
Yeah yeah

You worked undercover
Gave her every single line I owned
And it doesn't make me feel any better
That you took her places we would go
(Roll, roll the credits)
I thought you were meant for me
My name should be on that screen
Tell me, why's that chick playing my role?

Baby tell me, who is she?
I need to know her name and number
Tell me, who does she hang out with when you're not together?

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/roll-the-credits-lyrics-paula-deanda.html ]

I ain't gonna do nothing crazy
I just need you to hear me
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
And tell me how many of your friends you told all about it?
They said your working last Friday night when I was calling
Did you lie to all of them too?
Or was I just a fool?
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits

I know you directed it
I'm sure I produced a bit
I thought you were meant for me
My name should be on that screen
We weren't even at the end
But you started auditioning
And let somebody star in my show

(Baby)
Tell me, who is she?
I need to know her name and number (I need to know)
Tell me, who does she hang out with (tell me)
When you're not together? (who does she)
I ain't gonna do nothing crazy (aint gonna do nothing so crazy)
I just need you to hear me (I just need you, I just need you to hear me baby)
(Roll, roll the credits)
And tell me how many of your friends you told (tell me)
All about it? (who did you tell)
They said your working last Friday night when I was calling
Did you lie to all of them too? (all of them too)
Or was I just a fool? (oh a fool)
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
Roll the credits
Roll the credits
(Roll, roll the credits)
Roll the credits
Roll the credits
(Roll, roll the credits)

I should of learnt from the first time.


I saw this coming but I put it at the back of my head and ignored it. I didn't expect it to happen now. I had no idea you were texting her. I had no idea you were wagging school. I had no idea you invited her over. I had no idea about anything at all. I cried and cried to get it all of my system. I thought it would work. But as soon as I saw you, I felt like crying. I didn't want to touch you, kiss you or look at you. It was really hard. As we both lay in my room crying, I wanted to hug you but I couldn't bring myself to do it. The next night you got a bit drunk and got angry. The situation came up and you took it out on me. I'm not taking the blame for your actions, for you braking your promises. I hit you really hard in the head, back, arms and legs. I elbowed your jaw really hard. I cried and screamed. I shouldn't of done it. I didn't want to hurt you, it's the last thing I wanted. You saw what I did to myself. And I broke my hand again. Look what you did to us. I hope this works out and I'm not wasting my time.

Friday, September 3, 2010

This hurts.


You did the lowest thing you could do and broke my heart completely. I can't forgive you for it or trust you again. I don't think this weekend is going to be the same as the last. I think this will be the last weekend together? Tbh, I'm actually scared.

Liar, cheater, liar.


You promised me things. You said the sweetest things to me. I loved coming to yours and sleeping in your bed. Only to find out you promised her too. You said the same sweet things to her too. She was in your bed Monday and yesterday. I can't touch you again. I can't be in your bed. I'm going to miss your hugs and kisses. But the image of her on you is still in my mind. You lied about everything. You changed it all around so I felt bad for things. But how you going to get out of this one? You had sex with her. I should of listened to everyone before it got this far.

Where are you?


I was there for you every time you needed me and you were here for me. You ran to me crying when your boyfriend cheated on you. Now the same has happened to me, you're not here? I can't run to crying. I can't even say hi to you any more. I miss you and our friendship. I would do anything to get it back again. But I don't think you would, would you?