Friday, December 31, 2010

Get away.

I'm pretty keen to delete my facebook and start all over again. I don't need 1,150 friends that I never talk to. Seeing two past lives on there that I've had, really gets to me and puts me in tears. My old friends from England, said they would keep in touch, never heard from them again until they heard I was coming back. But since I've been back, I haven't heard from them and haven't seen them. My friends from New Zealand, they're too busy in their own lives for me any more. And I can't trust any of them any ways. Even if I wanted too. Do you know what I really want? To go away to my favorite place, in Italy, delete my facebook and start all over again. So my old lives are behind me. And no one can find me.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

I'm scared.

So in two weeks, I leave this country, again, to go live with my dad. It's what I've wanted for years and years. I was going to move to his instead of New Zealand, but I was scared to leave my mum. But now I'm back, I've grown up and I'm independent. I'm acting strong and invincible. But really, I'm still scared, a hell of a lot scared! I know it will be the greatest thing I've done for a while, but what if I make stupid mistakes? What if I don't like it there? What if I look like the stupid odd one out? I know I shouldn't be thinking this but I am. All I want to do, is go back to my home in New Zealand and not leave my mum ever again. Even if I have to start over with everything over there. At least I will be home.

It's time.

You've forgotten me. I need to do the same.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

People like you don't get far.

You are the most selfish, ignorant, mother fucking cunt bitch mother fucker I have ever met. And why did I EVER, become friends with you. I'm glad our friendship is over, way over. And don't try to get me to forgive you, one more time. Otherwise I will come back, just to rip your head off. :) so we understand now? yes? okay, good, go get hit by a truck.

Saturday, December 18, 2010


You have the cutest smile. :) Just thought you should know. ;)

Friday, December 17, 2010


I want to find a cute guy. One who will let me be myself and still like me for it. Someone who isn't scared of a bit of fun. Someone who gives great hugs and kisses. One who will care for me like none of the other fuckers did.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

This is awful.

Being sick sucks. All because of the snow. But it's beautiful stuff and wonderful to play in. No cold is going to stop me! hahah.


You've always wanted me to be happy. Now I am, I say a big FUCK YOU! because I finally am and you can't except it. :D

Fuck this sheeeet.

Be happy for once. btw, follow me on tumblr, I seem to be more happy on there than I am on here. This is more my depressing place. haha.
So new life plan.

- Spend some time with Dad.
- Forget about those who don't matter.
- Visit Italy.
- Move to Miami.
- Eventually go back to New Zealand.
- Live a long happy life, with no worries.

I think that all sound perfect.

Please and thank you.

Fuck all of ya'll. I'm happier on my own without anyone. :D so stay away yeah? I mean everyone. TA!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Sacrifice myself.

You mail me, everyone mails me. All about me and you. What's going to happen when I get back, what's happening now and all that stuff. Look, I love you a fuck load. I always have and anyone can second that. It's just hard at the moment. We're the complete opposite side of the world from each other. And you're playing us both, again. We know you are. So why are you asking for me back? Is it because she's said no and you need someone to run too? Is it because you don't like being lonely? I don't know what your reason is but I can't help but talk to you. All because I love you. I hate that I can't stop talking to you. And if you find another girl you will just leave, delete me and I will be hurt, again. But look how much hurt I've already taken from you, I guess a little bit more can't do anything? :/
You are an absolutely fucking cunt. And I never call people that. So you must be pretty fucking special. In your eyes you are to yourself, but to me you're some kind of different special. you fuck me off to the max! You will never ever replace him. I love him and I hardly even like you anymore. I told you this is just all fun and games, nothing serious. But obviously that means something else to you. and if you "fall" for me, I will make sure it's by me tripping you up! There is no way in hell you are moving away with me, so get that thought out of your head. Stop talking bullshit. Open your eyes and fucking realize!