Your eyes with your long eye lashes that every jokes about, your smile with your straight white teeth, your confidence, your voice when you whisper in my ear, our silence when we sit just looking, your hands when they hold mine, your body when I wrap my arms around you, your kisses on the forehead when I fall asleep on you, your heart beat when my head is on your chest, your feet when they play with mine, your arms when they hug me goodbye. All of you, and everything you do. I love it. I like you.
Friday, March 11, 2011
You told her everything. You told her you're going to miss me so much for the month you're away, you told her you're mad about me, you told her you really like me, you told her you want to be with me. And then she told me everything. But when she told me, she slipped something out by mistake, that you told her not to tell me. To be honest, even though you never said it yourself, my heart skipped a beat when she said it.
You asked me what I think of him. My answer to you was, "The honest truth of what I think of him? I think the world of him." But I'm too afraid to tell anyone else. You know more than anyone else. You know our feelings towards each other, our thoughts of each other. Thank you for being so calm about it.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
I actually don't know what to do anymore..
I've liked you for over 6 years, and I see you more than my own boyfriend. I think about your kisses and cuddles every day. We text every day, and when I don't get a text first, I want to text you. But I can't even think about being with you in the future, because you're my brothers best friend. And he already isn't happy about us kissing. But now you have your girlfriend, and you're going to Spain for a month. I have my boyfriend, but he's in England and he treats me right. I haven't had that in a long time. I don't want to fuck anything up between me and him for you. But sometimes I wish it was you I had. I hate seeing you with your girlfriend. I get kind of.. jealous? I wish I could stop this feeling. I don't know what to do about it anymore..
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I watch everyone else in their relationships, happy as they can get. With everything they want and need. With pictures of them being happy. Comments of joking around and being in love. I want something that can be happy and that can last. I just want someone to love me and treat me the best they can. Someone who will give me everything I want, but I won't accept. Someone I can trust and to trust me. I want someone like you. Funny thing is, I have you and I fucked it up. Now I don't know where things are going.