Merry Christmas.

I had wonderful Christmas's, with family and friends around me. Last year I felt completely alone that I wanted to go back home to New Zealand. But this year, I never thought I would feel like this. I'm excited for Christmas with my family and my new friends. I just couldn't get any happier.

First time.

You were my first boyfriend and my first time for everything. Now we're four years on. We're 18 and you have a daughter. You started talking to me and you started missing me. It made me miss you too. Please let's do it again.

I miss you.

I want you back so much. Please just come back to me. Please. I won't beg you to your face, but behind shut doors I'm screaming and crying for you. I'm punching walls and kicking. You have no idea how this feels and I hope that one day, just one day, someone hurts you like you hurt me.

Cunts.

We were getting along so great and gotten so close to each other. You had become the best boyfriend I had because you kept me happy more than anyone else did. I thought you would never hurt me. But you're just like the rest. You kissed your ex. The one thing I was always paranoid about happening but I told myself you wouldn't hurt me like that. Looks like I was the fool! I told you I'd forgive you and give you another chance, as long as she stays away. But you didn't answer me. I really miss you and I feel so empty without you. I can't stop crying over you and I hate being like this. You saw how much you hurt me so just take me back. Please.

Things have changed.

We used to be best friends, and you were the best best friend I have ever had. I know things got fucked up but I want our friendship back. I can't stand seeing these pictures or your name around facebook. Just talk to me, please?

It's painful.

My heart hurts. I want to go back to New Zealand. Even just for a holiday. But there is a lot of people I miss and I really want to see them again. Just even for one day. I would do anything to have them back in my life.

Karma's a bitch.

You're a bitch and I'm glad the power went at your 21st so you couldn't continue it. :L made my fucking day hearing about that. Good fucking luck with your life cunt.