your life.

it's not what i've done this time, it's what you've done. you have your boyfriend at school. he hangs with us at school. it's always us three. but is it really? it feels like it's just you two and i'm invisable. i mean, i put up with it for you. because you're my best friend. but i'm sick of it. and you know damn right well that i hate being third-wheel.

let's start something amazing.

so after them 5 months, those few weeks of texting, and a few nights spent together, you are finally mine. i'm older than you, by a year and two months. but i don't care. you're mine, and you make me happy and that's all that matters. you're the one i want. and i don't care what people have to say. i'm going to stick up for what i want for once.

the beginning.

addiction dance party, moutn sports centre, 12th march, 8pm open. this was what i put the most effort into to go. and the reason was, to see you. you were going to be there. i put up a fight with my mum. i got grounded for the rest of the weekend. i stood in the cold for two hours, freezing. i ran a mile. i sent thousands of texts. all just to see you. it wasn't the best night with you, but it was still great. and i loved every moment i spent with you. i can't wait until tomorrow. until we're on our own.

free.

it was 10 o'clock and youth had just finished. you walked me home to make sure i got ther safely. i wanted to walk you back just so you could walk me back again and we could repeat that for the whole night. i didn't want it to end. it was the most specail moment with you. because that was the first time we had really spoken to each other. i felt free with you. i felt i could tell you anything. i felt like my head was in the clouds and my feet were floating off the ground. it was amazing, as are you.

too good to be true.

you were a friend. some one who came into my life when i needed someone the most. you came into my life when i needed a hand to get out of the hole i was in. 5 months have gone past quickly. and now you're always on my mind. my smile is caused by you. by inbox is full of texts from you. my saved messages are from you. my 11.11 wishes are for you. my eyes are layed on you. and i'm about to call you mine. i am greatful for getting this chance.

i need you.

i want a guy. one who cares for me. who will look out for me. who can make me laugh and smile until i can't breath no longer. who can have their arms wide open, waiting for me to run into them. who i can cuddle through the night. who i can say nice stuff about. who will say they adore me. who will kiss me whenever they feel like. who i can call mine. who i can open up to and trust. who i can take out with me and show every one he is mine. who will be proud of me. who will let me wear their jersey if i'm cold. who will walk one thousand miles to see me. who will let me hang with me friends. who wont ditch me everytime we make plans, but who will go can with their friends too. who can be happy with our relationship. who can be true. who i can be true to. someone like you.

Raegan.

we got called sisters on the bus. people think we're twins. we have a friendship like sisters. you're the greatest. thank you for every thing. i love you Raegan.